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you think YOU had a bad day at work?
bonus: sid shrieking "no!!!! NO!!!!!" loud enough to be heard in the stands and on camera
#this is now my FAVOURITE game i've watched in real life knocking the game misconduct one off the number one rank#he was so annoyed the entire game and so annoying about it :')#he kept shrieking away on the bench and i couldn't hear a word from where i was seated#but you could just hear this constant yipping away dhfsgfkjshgfsjf PLEASE it was so funny your 36-year-old babygirl was BARKING#drew kept sitting there like... is mom okay... i don't think mom's okay...#also extremely good for me (since he wasn't really hurt) was the whumpfest of it all oh my god what ancient gods did he anger.........#geno kept Hovering in concern#po kept giving him little shoulder pats the way a sweet brave babyboy would try his best to soothe a rabid little dog#ek of course kept trying to slide right inside him and also kept skating up to him and STARING him in the face in concern/lust/both#also guys this is my first time in canada ever!!!!!!!! i'm excited#anyway. very good game for me sorry for this post but you know i love a#long post#sidney crosby#evgeni malkin#pittsburgh penguins#also!!! to all who celebrate#ramadan kareem/eid mubarak#<333 staying with a friend here through the eid celebration and they've been cooking and everything smells so good
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Prompt 113
“I seem to have been taken hostage.” Batman’s words almost had Superman panic if not for the wry tone, a tone which the others didn’t know if their freaking out was to go by. Clark sighed through the comms, tired after battle and honestly wanting to go to bed now.
“I’ll be right over, what child has latched onto you now?” He asked while switching to a more private channel.
“I can already hear you making fun of me…” Wha- Oh. Clark bit his lip to keep himself from laughing as he took to the air. “They appear to be a pair of twins with…”
“You gotta’ say it Bruce, you gotta’,” Clark couldn’t stop the chuckle when he saw his friend on the top of a building, cape curled around his form in a way usually reserved for the robins.
“... with dark hair… and blue eyes…” That was it. Clark absolutely lost it in laughter.
#dcxdp#dpxdc#Danny & Ellie fell into this world during an invasion were very scared#Latched onto the first semi-ecto contaminated person they found#Bruce gives off slight ghost vibes and feels safe so they aren't letting go any time soon#Could be Superbat might not up to yall lol#Batman is just staring down at the small children who have latched onto his leg and are crying#Look the man is a dad and a hero and isn't going to leave the kids there#It's also highly concerning when he finds out they're not in the system#And their DNA is only half human with the rest being... something who knows#Apparently he's adopted a pair of half aliens but that's not going to stop him#“I could take them if you need-”#“No they're my babies now no takes backs”
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Two whumpees who are scared of each other:
Neither of them want trouble
They are both so afraid of being near the other they avoid each other constantly
They flinch away at the slightest touch like one person and their mirror image
They are strangers, they do not trust each other, they have been burned too many times in the past and they will not be burned again
They stare at each other from a distance, not daring to actually interact
They want to avoid a fight so bad that they won't even say a word
Whumper loves seeing them together because it's amusing how similar they are
Their uneasiness around the other is promptly forgotten when Whumper arrives
Whumpee can't have friends; Whumper doesn't want them to, and we all know what happens when Whumper sees Whumpee doing something they don't like
If hungry enough, they can be bribed with food to spend time in the other's vicinity
Non-human whumpees?! Two puppy boys being very nervous with pulled back ears and big sad eyes hiding behind their owner's legs
One Whumpee lives here and in theory should be more confident than the other one, seeing as they aren't the one in a strange unknown place. That confidence flees as soon as the Other Whumpee takes even a single step in their direction. They do not want to fight, they just want to keep an eye on them at all times.
They flinch back and the other one flinches back too. They cannot stop doing this
Caretaker basically has to pretend with each of them that the other doesn't exist. If they mentioned that their counterpart is in the room right across from them, Whumpee would not be able to sleep.
They sleep as far away from each other as the room they are kept in allows, backs to the wall, staying awake until they can't anymore
I think Whumper should collar them and bind them together with a short length of chain. For enrichment purposes... For me
One of them starts to finally unwind and gently tries to connect with the other. The other does Not react well. They are both scared again
One Whumpee has a lot of scars — must be a fighter -> scary
The Other Whumpee has no scars — must be a Really Good fighter -> scary
Whumpee looks just like the Other — must be just as desperate and unpredictable/their whumper must be just as bad/they must be at a similar level of strength as them, no guarantee to win if fight breaks out -> scary
One whumpee is scared because they have been tortured into perpetual fearfulness — the other has never been tortured, but sees how bad Whumpee has it, and being the newest addition to Whumper's collection has them just as terrified
Whumper forces them to interact. The forceful, scary nature of their meetings sets back their otherwise slow natural warming up to each other by miles, having the worst kind of counter effect. Seeing the other reminds them of that time Whumper made them sit and hold hands for hours with the threat of punishment if they disobeyed
They both escape. They see each other across the street. They freeze and stare, thrust back in time, stuck in their old frightened and cautious headspace. Their caretakers are perplexed.
#whump#whump writing#my writing#whump prompt#there is a neighborhood cat that has taken to visiting the outside pantry where our cat's food is stored#they had a bit of a meeting today but both of them were so fucking scared of confrontation that they each just stared quietly#with their big dumb eyes#not even meowing of hissing angrily just being very carefully out of reach and keeping an very close eye on the other#but if one of them came a single step closer they would just back away#mine is an old cat that actually lives here and he was so concerned but refused to even pretend to be interested in defending his territory#if the other cat wanted to he could have come right in no issue my cat would just back up and keep watch from a few steps further inside#they are both so stupid <3333#so i simply had to show you my vision in whump terms#whump ideas#whump scenario#fear#torture mention#multiple whumpees#whumpee#whumper#caretaker
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Mikasa and Annie on a Girls Trip™️ but it’s just them kicking people in the shin and shoulder throwing full-grown men.
(Reiner and Jean on Boys Trip™️ but it’s literally just them getting into a slap fight in the forest then sobbing over their murdered boyfriends)
#Bertholdt and Marco are dead so they’re on their own trip in paths rn#Connie and Sasha go on a braincell trip but they forgot the braincell and are just staring at a wall somewhere in the distance#Armin doesn’t go on trips anymore because he always ends up with broken bones#Eren is banned from trips because he won’t shut up about freedom#Levi will go on trips but only if you get him an exotic tea#hange will go anywhere and do anything no questions asked also sometimes this is very concerning how nonchalant they are#Gabi and Falco go on trips but they don’t get permission first they just rawdog life and run around without adult supervision#floch isn’t invited on trips ever#Erwin runs all these trips nobody can go on a trip without his permission#except his boyfriend. Levi can do whatever the fuck he wants#attack on titan#shingeki no kyojin#mikasa ackerman#annie leonhart#jean kirschtein#reiner braun#marco bodt#bertholdt hoover#or if you wanna be funky:#jean kirstein#marco bott#berthold hoover#jeanmarco#reibert#aot memes#aot#aot spoilers
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You know how girls have this sixth sense or guts feelings about a guy having ability to be dangerous person or like 'oh this person can be fucked up' . Do you think this is what happen with those 20 girls rejecting shinichiro sano? Like if it was 3-5 I can say bad luck ? But 20? I know most of the fandom say the girls are blind or shinichiro flirting skills are well bad enough making him desperate or it is him being a leader of the gang in Japan where it is seen in negative image. But c'mon universally teenage girls love a bad boy image. I don't think out of those 20 girls didn't find shinichiro sano attractive with all these qualities. I love Shin but 20 rejection in reality straight up a red flag?
20 appears as a funny hyperbole at first, and it sure was used for comedic effects but I agree Shinichiro has unsettling flaws (to say it nicely). Transposing the number '20' to real life could appear off.
Shinichiro is indeed a delinquent (and the leader of a whole gang of them, who reached Japan's number 1 spot - that's not nothing) and is seen by all the characters we know as an endearing idiot with a heart of gold. And yet no girl fell for it. Good for them, they deserve better than making the experience of being with Shinichiro. They wouldn't have known what they'd have signed up for..
Shinichiro is a red flag in himself once you see pass the 'perfect brother, perfect friend' mask. He is a 'good person' but only because his life didn't make it so he saw a point to doing 'mean things' - he's not against the idea, we know about Original Timeline. 'It's because he didn't have Mikey anymore!' I don't think one's morals should be dependent on another's well-being. (I eat that shit up everytime in fiction, and I love messed up characters, Shinichiro fits both and I love that, and i love him, but it'd be daring to say he's a good person knowing everything he did - and knowing we ignore a lot more stuffs). Sure he was a 14 y/o but he still named his gang after an irl ultranationalist organization (knowing how Japan hides and denies its past, I wonder how he knows about that), he brought his 8 y/o brother to a gang meeting when he was 18, his idea of bonding with Izana was showing him how to act like a delinquent, etc. Original Timeline makes him even more of a red flag but considering the additional factors behind his behavior at that time, it's possible to think (and whether it's right or wrong I don't know, interpretations vary and sometimes Shinichiro is very hard to grasp, I have troubles with him at times) his behavior there wouldn't ever manifest had it been not for this exact situation of losing Mikey (and what was left of his family on the way).
And yeah, Shinichiro would never be as violent, impulsive and hostile as when Mikey dies - but those things didn't stem from nowhere. There's definitively crumbs of it even when Mikey's doing well. He's got trauma he refuses to address (parents' death, parentification, ...) which.. I can see as cradle for some toxic positivity - being portrayed as perfect, good and kind until OG timeline, we only ever see him smile until he loses Mikey. And when he tries therapy it doesn't work.
One thing you can't take away from Shinichiro though, is that he's earnest, he has not an ounce of malice in him. If he deceives people (by making them believe he's perfectly imperfect) it's not intentional because he himself sees himself as the image most see him as. That's worse in some way, because he really is unaware of how harmful he can be - he's a red flag but he sincerely thinks he's good, he never purposely intends to hurt anyone. He loves to help out his loved ones and he'd probably do the same to strangers, but he also sucks at assessing their pain or any kind of repercussions in any given context (ex: treating Haruchiyo's 'slashing his friends because they badmouthed Mikey' incident lightly, abruptly disbanding Black Dragon and seemingly not doing anything for Takeomi's distress, downplaying Sanzu's scars, ...). He's an enabler, too. If a loved one were to say '[x] makes me happy!' then he'd let them to [x] even if it actually harms them - he wouldn't see how that can be wrong, since they're happy.
The fact they were so much makes me doubt of the seriousness of his feelings I have to admit. While he has a lot of love to give and is genuine in his interactions with others (unless they're twisted by denial, ie: OG timeline Shinichiro acting happy and fine), it appears as if he's just desperate to have a girlfriend - without caring who it may be. It seems very shallow, does he even know the girls? If they don't know him it'd explain a bit why they didn't accept. If we restrain those love confessions to his Black Dragon years he has confessed to five girls each year - almost one for each season, one every 2 month and a half or so on average. That's fast lol.
After that we could talk about the possible reasons why he was so eager to have someone; ranging from 'typical teen wishing to acquire relationship experience' to 'thinking he needs to provide his little siblings with a mother figure because he can only fulfill the father figure role' by way of 'needing to save the family's face after their father's cheating get spread' but.. I don't want to develop them more, and they aren't really the topic at hand here.
Another issue that could arose from a relationship is that he'd put Mikey and his family first before anything else - that's a hard true and that needs to be accepted quickly too, no girl could ever be his number one priority no matter how desperate he sounds to have one.
One may say his inability to get girls is a difference between him and Takemichi — the fact Takemichi got Hinata as a girlfriend because she fell for him, got Emma to almost sleep with him, and got Yuzuha to have a crush on him. But we're used to comparing those two silly guys and thinking they both function the same way and by so, Takemichi being an idiot but still good at heart, Shinichiro can't possibly be a red flag. It's the kind of thing the story doesn't make you instinctively overthink, I think. We have clues on how Shinichiro is as a person once we scrap the surface of TR and starts to dig, but we really have nothing about how he'd be in a relationship, how he'd act toward a significant other - and picturing him as another Takemichi is just something that the story makes us do throughout the entirety of it so it feels logical for a time to give Shinichiro the same traits.
#id still firmly believe its a mix of things including negative rizz#because i love to laugh at him#because he's pathetic#Sano's black hole eyes should be a red flag in their own right ngl#i dont want to stare into the abyss and i dont want the abyss to stare back thank you very much#i just know its unsettling and disturbing and uncomfortable when they look/stare at you#alternative endings: shinichiro just always fall for lesbians. or aro. or ace. or girls who just dont want to date#them being indifferent to shinichiros appearance seems unlikely - but anyone has a six sens concerning danger. he didnt meet any potential#romantic partner with an attraction for dormant lingering danger. sad.(for him)#also the danger was very real since he was a delinquent but i think theres a gap between his acts of delinquency and the level of violence#he could reach if pushed too far (if Mikey gets taken away from him)#answering asks#dont recall if i ever believed in the 'they refused bc he was a delinquent' but i never believed in the 'they arent attracted to him'
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Tomura and Izuku doing self imposed challenges: Tomura reaching max only by using evil boops and Izuku reacing max only by using super boops, somehow whoever reaches it first wins lmao
LOL I love this idea
Tomura doing evil boops with the League and Izuku doing super boops with the class
And then they find each other's accounts. Now it is a battle to reach max in their own ways. They are locked in to get the highest super/evil boops first
I can imagine Izuku sending his results to Tomura with MAX - LOL and being like "I win >:3" but then Tomura sends his which are TUM - BLR and being like "get on my level >:3c"
#'hero vs villain!!' except they are just having fun booping lol#somehow afo finds out what they are doing and sends a very long dm to tomura in his typical Evil Speech way#trying to motivate tomura like the mentor he isn't#afo over message (imagine his theme is somehow playing as it reads): Look at them Tomura. How they struggle and flail against time.#Trying to obtain the boops they do not deserve in this twisted society-#tomura blocks and reports him immediately and then continues what he was doing before lmao#meanwhile all might dm's izuku like 'you're doing a great job son! 👊👍💪💪'#all might sends super boops specifically only because he likes them too much to do any other ones#he sees that he's got an Evil Boop from bakugou and he's sat there staring at the screen in concern#why Young Bakugou. why must you turn to the dark side :(#nbhgvfcrtfyguhkjml#thank you for the ask!😊#bnha asks#asks with metty#bnha#league of villains#class 1a#shigaraki and midoriya#tomura shigaraki#izuku midoriya#boop#boops
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every day i grow closer and closer to starting a self-ship blog
#delphi chatter#the amount of jilleon rambling i have withheld from all of you is concerning tbh#stares at the very personal 15k chreon doc i add to when i have a bad day#not yet.... not your time...
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with the caveat that we don’t know the ending yet and it might destroy me!--
i’ve actually really loved roman and gerri’s arc this season. it has been painful and miserable (what hasn’t??), but oh! the way it reveals the persistent, inconvenient depth of their feelings for each other over and over! i think their scenes this season have added a lot of depth to their bond that wouldn’t have existed if we’d just stopped with the end of season three; in season three, i think it was pretty easy to still question the full extent of gerri’s emotional investment in roman because she was so committed to seeming strictly professional, but they’re both fully in the mess this season -- even if gerri is still making smart choices to mostly get herself out of it -- and i cherish that. and i think each of their scenes has been really beautifully acted and full of fascinating nuance, and the entire fact of all the angst being rooted in roman having briefly stood up to logan because hurting gerri was so awful for him (and gerri not knowing that happened!) ... i just think it’s been really good! it’s such an aching portrayal of affection that has nowhere to go because the environment it exists in is totally antithetical to it. (which is, of course, extremely on theme for this whole show!) every single scene ending with one of them walking away and the other one feeling the weight of their absence!
like, ideally this will continue to be well-written and all be wrapped up in a satisfying way somehow (though who the hell knows what ‘satisfying’ looks like in this context), but at least we will always have the hurt and anger and mess and yearning! all these things not of a professional nature.
#dollsome's deep thoughts#roman x gerri#romangerri#on one hand i'm like 'well they'll probably have a scene because this entire storyline has been written on purpose and why would you stop no#w'#and on the other hand i am simply shaking in existential terror#succession#p.s. i'm also very thankful that we got 4.09 after 4.07#because gerri might have parted ways from him forever but also she will watch him with all the world's aching concern when he's hurting#and he will stare across the room at her when he's at his absolute lowest and think just for a second of going to her for comfort#and she will give him a tissue in a cut moment that won't be lost on the internet sleuths among us!!!!!
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🔥 witchcraft - in response to your unpopular opinion repost
Oh it's long, but here's what's recently been doing rounds in my head:
I'm with the gatekeepers. But sometimes people don't "gatekeep" correctly from my point of view, and then from their point of view, I am "too gatekeepy". When it's not about "more or less" gatekeeping, it's about how we go about it and who's doing it.
I often encounter situations where people don't respect nor properly protect things that need to be handled with respect and protection, and nuance, for the safety and general well being of everyone involved. In most cases, it's because they don't even know what they're trying to protect, or who, or why.
Gods Bless Nuance. It's completely gone from some very influential witchcraft people's vocabulary and behavior. And it irks me every time.
Like yes, sure, you can do magic without thinking too long and hard about the hows and whys that make magic work in general, and work specifically for you. But that's only going to take you so far as the "tried and true recipes" can take you, and in that case, you’re definitely not fit to teach or preach. You can't try to define, name, or explain to someone else something you don't thoroughly understand. And you certainly can't pretend to gatekeep the "Mysteries" if you've never fully submerged yourself in Them either. Not read about them! no matter how many books! Not taken a masterclass! submerged yourself fully, experienced them first hand, without the intervention or "guide" of others. Only when you've fully learnt to stand on your own. And that includes knowing when to say "this isn't my expertise, i'll refer you to someone else" or "I don't know". Standing on your own doesn't mean know everything and do everything, it means, what you do, you do properly. What you've learnt, you've fully internalized and know how it is applied. What you were given, you've made your own. You've earnt your stance.
The roles of teacher and gatekeeper in magic, in my opinion, always come together. When you're choosing what to preach and who to teach, you’re choosing what and who makes it through the Gates and more importantly how they do so.
Which means, if you're not fit to teach, you’re not fit to be at the Gates making Big Decisions about any tradition or the place of any person on either side of the gates. Specially not traditions that you don't belong in, but no, not even your own. You should still be in a teacher-student position and trust in the guidance and gatekeeping of your Elders or Teachers.
Not everyone is fit to teach, and most people online aren't. They're simply sharing their own experiences. But in the process, they often share more than they actually should, and more than they're fit to teach. Which ends up in all the misappropriation and bastardizing of practices, beliefs, entire cultures and religions on the greedy hands of people that should've never even been able to peer into them.
But students often underestimate the value and sacredness of what little has been shared with them in their journey. Specially in the beginning, when they don't know the whole truth to that specific concept, belief, practice nor the tradition as a whole and thus can't see the place of it in the bigger picture, or their own place as a practitioner, or simply don't have the maturity to take that weight in and act accordingly. They also vastly underestimate the sheer damage that incorrect handling and disrespect can do to a magical tradition and all the people in it, or to an initiatory, occult or "closed" religion, specially those magical practices belonging to disenfranchised and marginalized groups, and even to the people outside the culture, magical tradition, witchcraft tradition or occult religion, as they're reading or watching the student being inexperienced and incorrectly handling or inaccurately explaining something incomplete and out of context, to an even more lost audience, and thinking that's all there is to it. Missing the context of the message and who it was given to, and why. Missing the cultural context of the practice and all the ways that people coming from other cultures or traditions can fundamentally misunderstand it. Missing the theorical beliefs and cosmology behind why these truths are what they are, how and why these practices stem from them. Not just harm intellectually to that witchcraft tradition, the very real harm (physical, mental or spiritual, or all of the above) that anyone involved in that situation can incurr in if they don't learn to do certain things properly.
There's an alarming amount of so called "professionals" who are taken by others as authorities on certain magical traditions, and continously share bits of the "new findings" they're making, or the progress they've experienced personally... only to capitalize from it. Then completely detach themselves from the consequences of their actions. How can you share something you've learnt personally, and teach others how to do it themselves, if you haven't even fully internalized that lesson yet? if you haven't familiarized yourself enough with those spirits? what makes you think that what you're teaching, scratch that, selling, is actually something that is yours to teach or sell? what measures have you taken to ensure your own capability to teach this, who vouches for you and why? what measures have you taken to ensure you give due honor to the elders, the spirits, the Ancestors, and to the people who make up the body of this culture and tradition? and I don't expect just pretty words on a presentation if you're capitalizing off of a marginalized culture, I want really solid ways in which the profits of this work, class or else, will be going directly back to the original keepers' hands. I want them front and center at all times.
But even if it's not a marginalized culture or tradition. Even, no, specially when it's something that you created on your own, and had no one to lead you or teach you how it's suppossed to be done safely, the limitations of it, the reasons why it worked for you specifically and why it could or couldn't work for others. Hell, having no one there to challenge your biases. Witchcraft practitioners are often too quick to try to generalize an idea they had, a lesson they've learnt or a practice they've developed, in order to share it online with others, and sometimes, specifically in order to have something new to sell. Which opens a whole 'nother can of worms.
When you find all of that mess... with a cutesy instagram caption telling you to check out this New Offering! available only for U$D 200, for a limited time! That's just the cherry on top. Enjoy "learning" from someone who's practically a newborn to the relationship with those spirits, and has never had any of their biases or mislearnings checked. There's more chances that you'll be the one teaching them than anything else. And paying tens or hundreds of dollars ontop. The blind leading the blind.
TL;DR: If you're charging people hundreds of dollars for consultations and work, doing witchcraft profesionally, you can't claim to "never want to be seen as an authority". You can't literally place yourself in a position of authority, reap the benefits, pay your bills, but disregard and detach yourself from the responsibilities that come with your words and actions. Just because you know something doesn't mean you can share it, just because you learnt how to do something doesn't mean you can teach it, and you probably shouldn't either way. Witchcraft is often too personal and too culturally-historically tied to you specifically as a person, to your experiences in a tradition or lineage, and it's irresponsible, actively harmful, to generalize concepts, beliefs, practices or entire religions, for a wider audience in order to be able to capitalize off of them. "But I'm a witch and I got bills to pay" is never a valid answer to any of this. There's proper ways to learn and teach things in each tradition and culture, and they should be respected, in order to protect both the tradition and the people who wish to be, or are already, involved in it.
#Witchcraft#Witchblr#Witches of color#ask#asks#hey it was meant to be an unpopular opinion#so if this ruffles any feathers...#take it up to your elders and spirits#my notes#the way that my people teach#Is the complete opposite of how I see some people sharing or even#''teaching'' things online#which looks from over here like the witchcraft equivalent of gaming's ''i'm pushing all the buttons''#''I just did it''#''you should try it too''#''lmk if you figure out what button we're suppossed to be pushing''#...*very concerned stare*
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When the annual iqiyi vip sale is going on but now they geoblock even that. 😭😭
#jane watches stuff#(or not)#i've noticed that fewer shows get a eu release (with the exception of uk and spain for some reason) too#your sky and heartkillers are still not showing up#which is super concerning since domundi has never geoblocked a show before#change 2561 and one31 never released their shows in the eu in the first place#it really irks me and i hope the eu stops this crap very soon#(eu parliament plans to stop geoblocking for separate eu countries and i really hope they succeed)#anyway enjoy your vip sale i'll just be over here staring at the invisible region locks :(
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im so glad im not a straight woman. nothing against them but hopefully they'll get released from their own rules that they keep imposing onto themselves in the name of girl feminism. or whatever.
#like im just staring from afar very concerned very worried very confused#they think not wearing a full face of makeup is like. revolutionary. i just hope they meet a dyke someday and it leaves them pondering#emi text
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me being stressed overstimulated and paralysed: I want this to stop
my brain's autocorrect: did you say you want to kys?
me the alexithymic: am I having the bad thoughts?
#yk i really have a hard time differentiating#as far as my nrain is concerned they probably mean the same thing#consciously actually trying to deduct wjat im feeling orher than throwing it in a “i want to die” umbrella is hard#because i DON'T. it's not what i feel but the sentence somehow keeps conveying the meaning of “I want this to stop”#i know im not suicidal.#but because i can't directly be aware of wjat om feeling this is the alarm that lets me know if something is wrong#like i can be hungry#ir i can be embarrassed tp the extent i want to unexist#i could be ashamed of myself or be hating myself#i could be feeling sad#i could be anxious#SOMETIMES EVEN HAPPY#or exhausted#all if these translate into: “i wanna die” in a jumbled unclear foggy mess of emptions I can't differentiate#I dont want to die. i just wish i had an exit#that's probably why i disassociate so often anyways and freeze up staring at the wall#I'm not suicidal. i know that... the word i want to kms just is very... convenient fory brain to simplify abstract concepts of emotions in#vent#cw vent#alexithymia#mental health#I'm writing this for myself to know that this time im not running away from aknowledging my feelings
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Asthma in media: *gentle cough cough* oh no 🥺 I'm having an asthma attack 🥺 🥺 *cough cough* 🥺 🥺 🥺 🥺 it's very hard 🥺 🥺 🥺
Asthma in real life: *on the floor, chest hurting from coughing, coughs sound like you have the black plague, wheezing after fits are over, still sticks out hand with thumbs up once it fades* "...I'm fine I swear"
#I can't think of examples rn but like. it's wack#I see asthma in media and it's like T_T dude I WISH it were like that#I am *not* a fan of taking special medicine if I get even slightly sick#and also coping with my lungs consistently trying to escape my body#also the exercise tightrope of ''putting in good effort'' and ''not pushing self so hard you get an asthma attack and risk death''#...needless to say gym class was difficult and I'm glad I'm not in it anymore <3333#also everyone stares at you like you're gross and going to puke and they. don't help#I thought of it because when going to get dessert for the fam and I I started coughing BAD because I have a minor cold#my throat. is stripped raw by now. I live off of halls and pray my steroid inhaler is doing its job#also needing to reassure my family is ^^; a bit of a loop#my parents get concerned because the first asthma attack of mine that they ever saw was. the worst one I had in my life so far#and the second they saw was the SECOND worst attack I've ever had#so if I even slightly cough they like. watch VERY close with concern hjbjbdvh I love them and I get it but also. am going to live#anyway I'm gonna keep pretending Astarion; Karlach; and Gale would like me now hjvbhbjdbjhdvjhf#from daydreams to text#ngl the best depiction I ever saw was Ciel in Kuro#because his bad attack in the circus arc was 100% what my worst one was like. it really hit home
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frantically trying to open a mysmes chatroom in the middle of school like an addict
#mia speaks#my friend was just staring at me. very concerned#the chatroom doesnt have zen in it tho so. thats okay#since im trying to get his route#mystic messenger
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#art#digital art#oc art#oc#pinkfluffles art#digital drawing#been doing some experimental art?? or trying to be more painty#i like art that stares at you lmao#soft#dreamy#dreamy art#u can tell the focus is the face becuase i got very lazy with anything below the neck#despite the dreaminess a lil more on the realism side as far as my art is concerned??
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that's right babygirl. never upset daddy.
#PLS IF U REBLOG THIS LET THE PEOPLE KNOW IM JOKIMGNF#IM SORRY IM ADDICTED TO TALKING LIKE A TRYHARD TIKTOK THIRSTRAP SOMETIMES#even at work/school itll just plague my mind sometimes 😭#I HAVENT ACTED ON IT VERBALLY IN TJOSE SITUATIONS BUT IM STARTING TO GET CONCERNED#im either very Not good at acting on my thoughts or very Too Good#HELL#sometimes ill flinch when nothing happens or when smthing is 5000miles away#but if it's right in front of me and unexpected i just. wont do anything#BUT I HAVENT GOTTEN HIT FROM DOING EITHER. like luckily the thing is either a fakeout or misses 😭#i was at a haunted maze with friends n this scary mf jumped infront of me and i just stared silently at him 😭😭#NOT EVEN A 'IM GONNA STARE U DOWN STARE OOO GRR' but a ._.#BUT THEN IT HITS ME LATER THAT I SHOULD BE FEELING SCARED and then i have to be like 😭 wait wtf was that like 2 hrs later#it's either delayed or early girl i aint gonna hold u 😭#anyways i actually posted this to complain abt sauce choosing an angle where i cant see the saucetitties#THEY LOOKED SO GOOD FROM THE SIDE YALL 😭 I NEED SOMEONE TO WONT HIM DAMMIT!!!!!!#plz.. someone.. top. HIM!!!!!#idk why but he looks very lesbian sometimes to me#him ant n ja .. radiate sexuality LMFAO#his hair is so cute here!!@@!#a kitty cat president advocating for all dogs to d*e#sauce
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